You said you couldn't help but walked around with silly smile the whole day. i feel a bit proud. and i started to imagine your silly smile, and then i couldn't help smiling either... in my office, in a silly way.:)

and i hope you keep thinking of me, keep smiling when thinking of me, everyday.:)

and i love to call you this way... mon cheri!:)

Happy birthday to me!
Hehe.. I LOVE BIRTHDAYS!:D

Man.... why do i have this feeling that i'm reborn again? i'm checking out my site from my new laptop and it feels sooooooo great! not really know what happened but the world suddenly turned to brighter and faster and smarter and.... oh my god... i don't think i can handle this and i might need some time to get used to the speed and XP and wireless mouth and combo dvd and stereo sound and...... :)

Muuuuuuaaaaah! M5 i love you!!

My Love

Today i finally took my new sweetheart back home. since the first time i met him and realized his quality i've decided to get him one day. altho during these couple of weeks i saw not only him but also others and have done some comparison of his looks, features, value, potential, durability, stability with others which i know is pretty mean and immoral, and once in a while i even changed my mind to go for another one. while he broke all the rumors against him silently in his unique style, outstanding performance and high reputation no matter how much i doubted him. i think i'm in love with him already.

Back home my old sweetheart sat there quietly looking at me inviting the new love into my room. i was too excited and busy taking care of my new baby so i almost ignored his existance. when i happened to run into his eyes i saw an old lame ragged body struggling straighting up his back in the corner looking at me in a begging way. i even thought i heard sobs. i suddenly felt like a cruel heartbreaker, an asshole, who dumped my old partner as fast as changing clothes, even if he's been with me for 4 years.

oh well, old one has to be weeded out one day anyway, as he's been too out of date and can't be upgraded anymore. altho he's still cute and the size is perfect for me, i have to go for the new one as i've had enough of his slowness and malfunction. Sorry baby... i know 4 years is a long time and we have a lot of good memories together, including the best time in england, and it's really hard to give up a relationship like this. But please understand that i need to move on my life, and my new partner will be with me for another 4 years. yes he will, my new love...... ASUS M5!

hope you rest in peace, my beloved ACER TravelMate 314T.

Something about 30 about 30 something

She walked alone on her way to the bus stop. taking out the mobile from the purse, she dialed one of those hot keys. "hello honey! yeah i'm back! are you coming to pick me up?" "ah... you are at work? oh well.. ok... no no no, i'll be fine, don't worry! i'll talk to you when you finish work ok?" she cut off the line, then pressed another number. "hey i'm back! can you come to pick me up? what? your work is always more important than me... ok good! you'll never need to come to pick me up again..." hung up the phone, she grumbled a little while with a frown, then taking out the mobile dialing again. "hi jack it's me!" "are you still sleeping? it's alreay 7am in NYC!" "yeah i just got at taipei... so tired... missing my bed........"

In the film she is a 30 year old single woman, working as a stewardess in an international airline. In the reality she might be a marketing person in a IT company, a fashion shop owner, a business woman in a trading company, a school teacher, a nurse, a lawyer, or a writer. the common ground is, they're decent, financially independent, in their 30's, and not married yet.

they're not lack of admirers. in fact, they might be in one (or more) relationship(s)... sometimes, or all the time; in past, present, or present perfect tense; with age range from 20's to 40's; single, married, or divorced with 2 kids men. they might have several 'good' male friends, who might used to be their admirers, bfs, dates, or bed partners. they might still fancy those guys a bit, or might not like them but enjoy in having their attention, but due to the fact that nothing could be worked out they turned out to be 'good' friends. while when hearing the socalled 'good friend' is getting married, they would still feel a bit bitter at heart.

they don't really NOT want to get married. in fact, they're desperate to get married as MOST of 30ish girls did. while the problem is, they haven't met the one who they can marry to. or they've met the one but at wrong time wrong place. or they've met the one but they screwed things up themselves. so they keep floating on troubled water, grabing everything in sight eagerly to rely on, confusing that if the one they hold tight can rescue them out of the water, or merely saving them from drowning for a bit. most of time they live well on their own, only sometimes when they're sick or in trouble or... under the quake, they'd wish to have a pair of strong arms and shoulders to lean on right away; or when the god damned radio keeps reminding the vday's coming, they'd swear to get a bf before then. ultimately they start to wonder if they need a man only because they're lonely and vulnerable, or because they're lack of emotional independency? because they want to get married, or because they persue love?

in 30's, every questions begin to be seen more seriously, urgently, and realistically than in 20's. they can't live for LOVE ONLY any more. they have to take material factors into consideration. altho they would always accidentally run into those "LOVE MATTERS!" young guys in their mid-20's, who're more fun, energetic, fresh, adventurous, brave, straighforwad, and innocent; who would tell them they're younger but they have mature mind, how many dreams they have for the future and want two people to accomplish together and grow up together, how much they love them and want to marry them, and they haven't had a lot of property yet but one day in the future they will... ; who would take them out dancing, biking, camping, hiking, bowling, partying... but not dining in a classical french resturant with live violin play and a bottle of burgundy red wine; who might be able to erect over 7 times per night, but might still learn to find the right way in girls' secret garden.

Back to the movie 20.30.40... it's more like a reality show to me than a movie, which only expresses the surface of those females' reaction, feelings, ways to deal with their life and relationships, while deep inside there're still a lot more being able to present. oh well, it's simplly a movie.

You must go check out Asad's recomendation. those tiny games are just so hilarious and fun that you can hardly keep away from trying them.

Try these... my favorite in this life...

* Movie soundtrack "AMELIE", EMI 2001 (also th movie "Amelie")
-- the melody always leads you into an imaginative girl's fantastic world in where you become the one who's on the back seat of the bike passing thru the breeze smiling to the wonderful life experience...

* "D'EUX" by Celine Dion, Columbia 1995
-- the first french album i got in a small mountain city called besancon in east france, when i still could speak fair french... the music along with celine's vocal is just like the sound from heaven....

* "POR UNA CABEZA" in movie soundtrack "Scent of Woman", MCA 1993
-- Al Pacino movie, the music came out when the nearly-blind Al invited the girl for tango. the dance was fabulous the old Al was gorgeous and the harmony of the violin was zealous...

2004/03/03 1:16am Taipei
Hey My Dear Friend, have you fallen asleep yet? i haven't. reading now, and thinking of you. just let you know about it. as i feel it's kinda happiness that someone you care is thinking of you, in this deep quiet night.

and i like to call you... My Dear Friend.:)

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"How much d'you like me today?" she asked.
"hm... i'd say... 60%." he goes. "what about you?"
"i think... right now it's 125%! but earlier today you didn't talk to me much, so i only liked you 30% much. then when you told me you always liked spending time with me, it went straight up to 150%..."

Oh My Sweet Friend... as long as you like me.... :)

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That night when you were working on the computer, i secretly peeped at your profile.
when you gazed at the screen concentratedly, i found you had light blue eyes.
when you sealed the lips steeping in deep thought, i found you clean-shaved your chin.
when you sat straight up doing a bit stretch, i found your figure was pretty fit.
when i walked close to you, i found you smelled shampooedly good.

My Lovely Friend... i allow you to tempt me in this way... :)