She's told as a mean girl the other day. yes she knew she sometimes would be a little bit cold to those who she didn't quite know or first time met, or tease those who like her looks but she's not interested in. she didn't mean to hurt anyone, but obviously her naughty tricks left some people a bad impression to her--that she's a mean girl. she doesn't like to be misunderstood at all, so she started to wonder what is good and what is bad? Is it considered as a good girl that you do things for others all the time and behave like what people expect you to behave, no matter one expects you to be caring but the other be easygoing? does being a nice girl mean you have to give up some of your natural personalities but going for what 'most of normal people' want you to be, which are being less aggressive, less advanturous, less outgoing, less independent, more gentle, more feminine, more thoughtful, more looking at insides of people instead of the appearance, more thinking about the future instead of enjoying the moment life? why this world always try to give us a frame to grow up as a 'standard' person? why only those 'standard people got chances to live 'normally'?

she never thought she's a mean girl and will never think she is. she cares her friends she helps people she tries not to give others pressures. whatever they say she decided to keep being her natural self. one day at last there'll be someone admiring her everything as who she is.