Last night was the greatest halloween i've ever had in my life, and i should thank a sweetest cutest indian gal named jenny for picking brass monkey for the party (thank god we didn't go for carnegies!:P) it was actually a bit disappointing when we got there, as we spent a while to find the place and then found out only several people did dress up and the dancing ground was totally empty. (well... 9,30pm was indeed too early for the party...:P) fortunately more and more freaks came in eventually... first was a top naked guy with a pumpkin face on his skinny belly, then vampire, Buddhist monk (he rented a whole set of monk robe like tang sang tsang appeared in 21st century!), frankenstein, swan lake ballet dancers, gay girls, tseng tsu in "the ring", masochist coupls, bunny girl, 'bloody horny sexy angel', and even taiwanese cop! everyone's so cute and funny at the party! me and jenny was only wearing devil horns on the head and most of girls did that way which made me feel unspecial at all! next time if i get chance i will definitely find something different to be!

it was supposed to end up around 12am for us as jenny gotta work the next morning, but we kept dancing and having fun till 2am. we both agreed it's a right decision to stay later..... ;) anyway i had so much fun last night and got so bad hangover this morning, but i just like this feeling! the greatest thing is, NO WORK AT THIS WEEKEND!:D

Tina found that getting a bit drunk swinging in lousy crowded pubs at saturday night till 3-4am was considered as the most remarkable time in a week for her. she could scream, shout, talk out loud, shaking body crazily, intoxicating mind with alcohole and cute laids, then going home taking a deep sleep till dreams end. when the next day waking up, the energy would come back again for her to prepare for getting back to another week's battle. taking guys home directly from pubs is a terrible idea. the bodies nasty the clothes smoky the breathe smelly the sex exhausting then the next morning it'd be even tiring. so don't ask tina if she took any guys back home from party nights or not. partying for her is merely a type of self-medication, just a wacky one.:P

I've been staring at the blank blog page on the screen for 10 mins. but i have to tell you that i still can't write anything. i have no thoughts to share with you. and i don't want this site to be my e-diary. Aaahhhhh.... actually i'm brewing my novel. i have got the idea for the structure and the style, the name of the book has been ready, so the only thing i need to do now is to start to write something down. that's the hardest part tho. i must tell you the book might not come out in 3 yrs.... haha... would anyone be interested in waiting for it? ok... never mind...

I brought up this question after reading someone's blog and it seems a good opening for the stuff i'm thinking of putting on my blog recently. and i'd very like to hear any of my friends to tell me what they think. so the question for today is, "why God made us as emotional creatures that always need to find acceptance and dependency from one another, but also gave us power to like and dislike? wouldn't it be easier if we were made as loving everything/everyone in this world then we could get acceptance from anywhere/anyone?"

this should be a familiar scene to all of you, that those who you're attracted to wouldn't come to you or always get you a sad ending, but those who you're not interested in would always hit on you or be willing to take care of you forever. so the problem is not that you can't find emotional dependency, but that you can't find someone who fits your critiria to commit your emotion to. why would we still feel lonely even if we got friends around? why would we feel not being loved even if we knew families/friends/admirers love us? right, we want that dream guy/girl to come to us, to love us, to be with us, only that dream one.

so why do we need to find that dream one for the whole life? why can't we feel happy to be with any one in opposite sex? why did He give us emotions and desires but also judgement and selectivity? is that part of the meaning of existence that to spend the whole life to search for the right half? but what's the point of doing it?

waiting for comments.

the question for next time would be, how men and women be good friends without emotional involved? think about your experience and i'll tell you mine in next post.