Philippines is getting more and more interesting once I started making friends. I mean the real friends, not business people. I've been fed up with talking about business all the time, and fed up with frauds and distrust and distance and socialization and punctiliousness. I need some break after work, I need to relax, I need to have real friends.

So today I made one, a former worker of our agent. She's a nice girl who likes party out. Just my type of friends. And she's gonna introduce more friends to me so we can go out sometimes when I'm here. I'm very happy about this. I'm happy to meet people from everywhere and get to know their culture deeply. I'm happy that I'm so adaptable. I'm happy with my life.

So after I come back from a vacation in the south Boracay Island, I will let you know every details I've encountered.:)

This is the third month we've been together. We spent more time with each other, and we started to argue. We argued for those tiny things, for finding out the differences between us, for certain insistence that we've believed in for our whole life, for seeing everything deserved. We started to hold back a bit every time after arguing, we started to try not to touch each other's hercules ankle, we started to talk less.

Then one day one of us realized that we have to change the current situation to avoid things going worse, while the other one's still unconscious of the crisis and kept behaving willfulness. Then one day one told the other ending up the current unworkable relationship should be the best way for both of us.

So that's it. Our story ended here for now, in our third month.

So here I am. A sinner in our relationship. I'm the one who played around this serious relationship. I thought love should be always a remedy for relationships but I didn't notice love would go away little by little once you lost your respect to it. When I realized my relationship has been shined red light, it's already too late.

What can I do to turn the time back? What can I do to ask for a forgiveness and another chance?

Please help me to fix our relationship. Please don't go away and leave me behind. Please don't give up. I believe there were a lot of things we could've done better. And I believe everything will get better only if we have chance to try once again.

I really wish you could tell me again... "Let's forget about it and go somewhere."...

I finally lost him. I lost a beloved one again. It's just as easy as slipping away from my fingers. I even have no second to catch it. I blame myself. I regret for what I did. I disappoint at the ending of our story.

I'm very, very sorry, for not having cherished you more. Can the time go back to the beginning? Can we start it over again? Can we fall in love with each other again?

The beach season is gone. My season is gone. No idea what to do for fun in this leaf falling season. Going to my favorite seaside seems a bit crazy and freezing. Maybe hotspring or bbq would suit the tempature more. Luckily when the air gets colder I'll be having a strong arm to warm me up this time.

So nothing really new lately. Just have been scheduled some biz trips by end of year. This month Philippines again, next month India, and will stick on travelling to these two places a lot in the future. Don't really mind travelling in this frequency, while only feel sorry for my poor lonely darling.