Today is Monday....

What did you do after early off...?

What are you doing at this moment 11:15pm...?

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Sometimes the more we try to forget, the more we get to remember.
Every picture keeps popping up in mind like watching a movie trailer.
Good thing is movie trailer always cuts the most spetacular scenes to play. The memory also works in this way.
Then hopefully one day when we meet again, we will only see smiles from each other.

You sensed you slightly changed. You started to enjoy in a quiet night with a book and light music. You started to dislike sleeping till noon at weekends. You started to feel stressful in night clubs. You started to take a breath before reaction.

You started to carry a book in your purse and read on the bus. You started to add your family into your free time plan. You started to go to bed early. You started to feel God again.

And you found the peacefulness coming back to your mind again.

Reading: The five people you meet in heaven

This is about an old amusement park maintenance man Eddie who died in an accident for trying to save a little girl from falling cart. Then he met 5 people in heaven who either died for Eddie directly or indirecly, or chose to wait for Eddie for speaking out something they've meant to tell him. Ultimately this book tries to explain the quesiton which exists in most of people's mind, that 'what's the meaning of my life?'

Just like the movie 'sliding door', the author also believes one's life is linked to another's and every single story in each day is made by several people or even hundred of people's story piece. One story is seen from different objects' views and hense different effect or result occurs.

Who will be those I will have to meet when I get in heaven? I don't know, but if we are able to see them in heaven and get the whole picture of our life, wouldn't it be great? The only thing which I believe would definitely happen is those we encoutered in this life will be met again in next life, or the following life, or in every life. I guess that's the rason we are here, we receive then we pay back, and receive and give and receive....

Listening to: The Phantom of the Opera

Think of me, think of me fondly,
when we've said goodbye.
Remember me once in a while-
please promise me you'll try.

When you find that, once again,
you long to take your heart back and be free-
if you ever find a moment,
spare a thought for me...

We never said our love was evergreen,
or as unchanging as the sea-
but if you can still remember.
stop and think of me...

Think of all the things we've shared and seen-
don't think about the things which might have been...

Think of me, think of me waking,
silent and resigned.
Imagine me, trying too hard to put you from my mind.

Recall those days, look back on all those times,
think of the things we'll never do-
there will never be a day,
when I won't think of you...

For my beloved Dave.

我很想你 真的 很想你...

Listening to: Jethro Tull... some music Dave burned for me
Mood: Cheerful
Time: Just finished dinner with customers half an hour ago

This is the 5th day me and Dave broke up. Oh yes, we broke up again. No no, don't worry, Tina is pretty fine now. Just felt painful down in deep heart for 1 and half days, then luckily she found herself way out. Now she's back to a happy girl again. She still loves Dave and misses him, but she's not going to do anything but only let things go as the way they meant to be and see how it goes. This relationship has taught her a lot of lessons and opened up her wisdom, she's really grateful for the giving from God and also looking forward to the unexpected coming future God's planned for her.

This time surprisingly, she doesn't feel any hatred or unfairness, but only gratefulness and peacefulness. She finally gets more and more mature.

Ferries Wheel in Taipei

Last Saturday was my happiest night in the past months i can say. It was called up by Jenny who was born on the day 25 (??) yrs ago. We had a bday party at roxy junior and Ana Jason Dave Toru Marcel Terry Vichard... were all there. I was so happy to see Ana and Jenny again whom I haven't seen for 2 months. We drank, chatted, laughed together as before which really made me miss our good old party time. I haven't gone dancing in pubs for 6 months can you believe it? Life is calm and nice this way but sometimes I do miss going out for fun tho. Ana understands me in some way. She said I'm just a person who needs a little bit craziness in life. Oh yes, life should be fun, isn't it?

Can you see the life in same way as me, my dear?

My new year resolution... work smarter, be happier, and keep all the luck from last year!

Yes, if God can't give me a perfect guy, at least I have favorite work to rely on, isn't it?

And I'm not giving up anything for anyone any more! I will go eat stinky tofu whenever I want, no matter you like the smell or not. I will go sing ktv, take hotspring, go partying and dancing with my funny friends, no matter you think those are boring or not. I will do whatever make me happy, you follow me or not it's all your choice.

And I'm not going to believe in impulsive love any more.

Have a great new year!

Oh by the way, I was in city hall again on new year's eve. Same spot, same crowds, same count down, same wu-bai band, only 101 light up and the company is not the same. This time i was with my bf, who was actually drunk and did tones of crazy things in public which he'd never don when he's under clear mind. I think he's more cute and adorable this way tho. I felt so much love when he kissed me at the moment that a new year just started.