Freakout

I'm living upon 'deadlines'. Deadline for quotation, Deadline for dispatching samples, Deadline for preparation for buyer's meeting, Deadline for new development, Deadline for submitting travel request and visa application, Deadline for showroom arrangement, Deadline for credit card/phone bill/rental payment, Deadline for food storage, Deadline for membership, Deadline for partnership......

My calendar is filled with red remarks, my mind is also occupied by numerous dates and the tasks for those dates. My stomach always gets taut spontaniously when I think of those deadlines, no matter the task is big or small. Sometimes the deadline for work comes before or along with some good things I'm expecting. In this case I would always be confused with myself, should I stay happy to expect the good ones or feel nervous for the coming of the deadline? My mood would be facing a dilemma situation. And this is just how I feel at this moment.

A friend is coming here soon and I'm very excited about it. While before that I will have 3 deadlines to meet which don't excite me at all, and one travel to be made. I'm anxious but also happy, expecting the day but also wish time to go slowly. I think I'm going crazy....