1. I cried over on the phantom of opera again. Everytime since the organ melody came down and the chandelier's lifted up from the stage, I started to burst out tears uncontrollably until the last scene, on which I even cried harder when Christine kisses the phantom. There's no other play or movie or music I would cry over like this one. Now I deeply believe Andrew Lloyd Webber must have added some magic in this show so that it's not only been kept playing in London for years but also made me cry over everytime.

2. I'm flying to India again on Monday. I've been there a lot of times, but I still don't like the country at all and even don't feel like going there again. This time my Indian coworker will not be in Delhi so I have to arrange everything myself for all visits and dinning and also on the other hand take care of my manager from US. I feel unexpectedly stressful and nervous this time. I didn't really remember the names of the areas that we used to go for food and even never checked out city map before. Besides most of drivers don't speak english there, neither tricycle drivers nor airport pickup guys. I can't stop imaging the troubles which might happen to us and the scenery of a foreign girl travelling in a darkbeadedmen-dominated country on her own. I even thought of calling my boss to cancel this trip earlier today. I'm very scared.

3. Yes I'm scared but I can't do anything with it. People who know me tend to think I'm a brave and independent girl who can and dare to do everything, either with people or on my own. But I'm actually not. I have to learn to be brave because sometimes I can find no one to rely on but only myself. I have to take the task bravely because it's my responsibility and I can't leave to others what I ought to do merely because I'm scared. I can't just quit everytime I face fears. I do wish I didn't have to learn to be brave and there's always a someone I can rely on whenever I'm scared. I wish I could tell people 'I fear and I want to quit'.