Can you believe you'd still get a cold in summer time?
it seems a stupid idea but a stupid one just got it.
must be too much ac in this city.
and can you imagine under 100F air wearing jacket and drinking hot water would still make you shivering?
but feel better than having something with ice cubes in it.
embarrassing is that a lady from the office passed by and asked if you were crying when you kept blowing nose.
lucky one is you get plenty of tissue paper to use wherever you go.
so tell me why 3 months under 40F didn't make me sick once but 2 months above 90F got me twice?

muddy brain thinks daria is a cool show by the way...

She's sitting in her tiny room having her dinner from 7-11: fan twan (rice roll with seaweed wrap), macaroni salad, tealeave steamed egg, and milk tea. the end of month she just tried to eat something simple, easy, and healthy-look. by the bed is her stereo playing her favorite jason mraz. before radio started to play classic jazz some great pops being requested that she could enjoy singing along out loud and got something released. on the coffee table is 'the nanny diaries' she took tripple of time reading english version but just finished chapter 1. it was a plan to do some reading to spend a relaxed sunday nite but ideas kept popping up in her mind that couldn't stop her turning on the computer typing down in her blog. a pencil and a piece of paper can't make her write anymore but only the keyboard and the screen can. good music cool ac air cosy cubicle space relaxed sunday nite hours, who can be the best company at this moment instead of yourself?

after tonite there will be another week of new challenges and experiences coming up. she's looking forward to it!:)

Summer seems a vacation season to the world. the email everyday tells you who'll be out of office for vacation who'll be absent from this date to that date. friends phone to consult you where the value-for-money site to travel. coworkers talk about the getaway plan for using up the annual leave effectively and economically. even the conversation with strangers starts with the destination they're planning to shift after short visit of this island. you can't help wondering if everything coming at once is kinda sign and what it says to you. (honey don't forget you just got back from a freaking long vacation and finally got settle down a bit, what more do you expect?) while what bothers you deep down in mind is in fact the anxiety and insecurity of the sudden change of a regular life pattern or relationships to certain people or the environment. so you thought you're afraid of stability as your surroundings keep changing, yet in fact you fear of change so you keep life moving around to avoid the unexpectedness out of regularity. if life is all about routinization, why God gives intelligence to humans?

it's too boring in the office, so it came up a boring post.

The disquieted elements agitate your blood and your mind. the steady air suffocates you to death. you start to feel nothing goes right in life, you start to hate everything/everyone of your surroundings, you start to consider some changes.

What makes you become a traveller roaming around in this world?
are you looking for something which you can't find from where you are?
or are you looking for something that you're not sure what it is and where it is?
or you don't even know if you're looking for something and what you're looking for?
or you're escaping from something?

So everytime when the departure day's approaching, the melody will pop up in mind spontaniously:
So kiss me and smile for me
tell me that you'll wait for me
hold me like you'll never let me go
cause i'm leaving on a jet plane
dont know when i'll be back again

She found that her work was getting more and more interesting. the routine secretarial keyin and filing job is only learned for handling the circumstances that secretary was absent, while the main job of hers is to try to create new fashionate products and try to sell them. it sounds more fun than just selling or negotiating or purchasing. from now on she can fully bring up her infinite imagination 'for offical use' and don't need to care what those realistic people think about her haha! you'll see, they'll like her ideas and place orders for the appreciation!

the 8th day, she finally got some attention in the office, so the work motivatoin at last got a bit driven on.:)

She used the coconut flavor conditioner today, so her hair's smelling so good just like coconut!:)
She kept the ice cream she meant to give away for a friend's party but didn't go at last, so she's enjoying the ice cream and it feels so good!:)
She got an email from someone she lost contact for almost a year, so she's glad to know that some people still think of her sometimes even though she thought they never cared about her.:)

No writing means no thinking, no thinking makes her frightened. busy schedule takes over her thinking hours, as well as the energy of brain rolling and emotion reflecting. it always makes her feel like one of those poikilothermals, changing body temperature along with the climate, no self-control power nor even a brain. she suddenly thinks of keeping a pet tortoise, at least two poikilothermals living together would feel less lonely.

The fifth day, her office hour turned to be extremely occupied with NOTHING. this season is considered as less busy to them, so except for a couple of paper to key in, all she could do for the day was only staring at the computer, clicking each buttom on their intranet, reading those encouraging articles e.g. how to overcome the pressure from work, how to be a successful entreprineur, discover your strength and core competivity... then an hr later she started to read the rest ones like 10 ways to keep healthy, never ignore your breakfast, positive thinking... gee! she never liked to read those kinda stuff but it seemed to be the only official thing to do at that moment. then at 2pm, she found all the link buttoms had turned to grey color, which means no more to read.

and now she's going to eat her peanut sweet soup.

When you don't see her online working on blog she must be ceasing her rest several 'personal' hours... sleeping.

So how was her first day to the new work? well, it was somewhat exciting, somewhat boring; kinda loafing around, kinda fatiguing.

she actually did go to bed before midnight, but the freaking ac turned off itself automatically around 3am and she'd been woken up by the stuffy heat. she pressed the button on and went back to bed but it shut off again 4 hrs later. so she was kinda staying awake till the alarm clock rang. she finished her breakfast gulpedly then walked to the bus stop but what she could do was only watching the bus passing by her ruthlessly. so finally she got to the office around '9ish' and luckily no one noticed her worries.

then the day went into the constant training classes, from company's profile to the major customers' 3 digit codes, from 10F main office frontdesk to 6F showroom, from no-food-in-office regulation to no-jeans dress code, from the duties of account executives to the catagories of products, from 10-12 different usage of printers to order management system, from the favorite packaging style of this vendor to the favorite payment term of that customer....

yet she still gotta tell you how much fun to walk around their showroom. she felt like hanging around in a artistic supermarket, where got everything except for food and clothes dept. they even sell irons and deck chairs. she started to imagine the way she opened up those sample boxes with surprise and joyfulness as opening up christmas gifts, and that's a reward to her once she passes this boring training time.

You love me not because i'm beautiful, but i'm beautiful because you love me.--anonymous

<Star Light, Summer Night>

She was standing out of crowds gazing at him. he just recovered from a severe head accident and even once being diagnosed of brain concussion, though still remained his usual performing style, frank, plain, forthright, childish, unconstrained. t-shirt with shorts and sandals is his fascia, the unexpected extra notes or lyrics are his mode, the starlight and the natural filed is his spotlight and stage. she grew up with his genius creations, the familiar melody always led her emotion back to the happy hours or sad moments in puerile college time, and he's still her dream man after these several years.

she was standing there gazing at him, admiringly, as if gazing at her perpetual lover. that night she had an unforgettable rendezvous.

<New Work Resolutions>

So after this weekend, she'll be starting working again. this time she got 5.5 months on vacation... long enough humm! (if she knew it had to take her another 2.5 months to get a job she would've stayed in the states longer...) anway, time to write down the vows and start to read them 10 times per day!

Tina's new work resolutions:
1. Get up EARLY and go to bed BEFORE MIDNIGHT!
....(well... the best way is to have someone to call me at 11pm and say goodnite to me everyday!:P)
2. Never be late to work!
....(err.... if i could find an apartment right next to my office...)
3. Pay FULL ATTENTION to work and never talk back to boss in defiance!
....(ok... no more discovery & nat'l geo channel...)
4. Never complain about the unreasonable pay!
....(yah... only think about annual bonus, bonus, bonus...)
5. Keep smiling to work everyday!
....(i would if we got some cute guys in the office!:P)
6. Never feel routine jobs are boring!
....(no no, they're not boring, if you pass this round then you can upgrade to the higher level of routine jobs...)
7. Be patient, be efficient, be accurate!
....(be patient to wait for the off time, even if you finish all the work 3 hrs earlier...)
8. No pain, no gain.
....(no giving up the most optimal travel seasons for 2-3 years, no managerial pay and position!)
9. Humbleness, humbleness, humbleness.
....(yes ma'am...)
10. No real friends in office.
....(say never complain the boss the company the stupid coworkers with coworkers!)

Recently she's just a bit overexcited. camping on the beach opens up her infinite imagination and releases her hopeless romantic elves again. she can't stop thinking how much fun she's going to have to drink and dance with outdoor live rocknroll music under starry sky, lying on the sand listening to the sound of waves chatting with her dear friends at dark till the sun rises up, whistling to those topless musclar hot cute beach boys (hopefully there're some!:P), jumping into the sea getting choke a bit, or just taking a solar bath napping a bit. so many things to do and so much fun on the seaside, even if doing nothing just sitting there staring at the waves for the whole day, is also kinda fun for her. yes she just likes seaside so much. and she hopes things will go with/over her wishes. if tropical afternoon thundershower don't come that day.

have a great summer folks!:)

<Shopaholic>

Evidence shows that pressure can turn one to be a shopaholic, and shopping indeed is an effective remedy for antidepression. after sliding her card on the machine several times, she totally spent 1,282nt in 3 hrs, got 2 music cds, 3 vcd movies, and 1 book "the nanny's diary". the cds are both crappy and one of them is even not what she wanted. while shopping cds made her feel much better and released, as she seldom thinks a lot when buying music, which is also the only thing she would pay for without hesitance and never cares about total expenses. as for the movies and the book... well, the former are cheap and the later is funny, and she thought of reading a bit to kill the boring free unenployed week. so ultimately her mood became much better than the one before getting out of her house, and she believed it's shopping curing her, even if she started to worry how to pay back to the card next month...

whatever! leave the future vexation to the future! she's too tired and need to get some sleep now...

<Nature>

Been a long while not sleep in the nature. Got scared a bit while she did it again. in the dark there's only the sound of flowing water, crickets cicadas frogs and other unknown creatures, rubbing leaves, and tranquil air. she always thought she belonged to the nature but back to it everything seemed so unfamiliar and insecure, and scary. she also missed her comfy bed. after opening eyes with kinda excitement for the modern buildings and people around, she finally admited she's merely one of those city girls with materialistic mind, even though most of them can't even stand a couple of days without starbucks 7-11 frige airconditioner.

the other side of her, she always felt being recharged under the sun shine. except for the annoying bugs and cobwebs she actually enjoyed walking in the green world smelling the herb fragrance, or swimming in the river at dark summer night if it didn't get colder. the amazing nature brought her shiny fireflies silver fish and starry sky as a gift, and some suntan as a souvenir, so she wouldn't forget in this summer she had a wonderful time in a beautiful mountain valley in this small island.

Please always forgive her.

Just because she's a hopeless romantic.

<The Artificial Wild World>

When was the last time you went to the zoo? mine was 5-6 years ago, when taipei zoo didn't have koalas and penguins, when the elephant couples were still alive, and when there weren't so many american resturants coming into the food court.

so today i went to the zoo. it seemed not as attractive for me after growing up as i was a kid to visit the zoo, but i'd still like to check it out a bit. i guess except for updating the impression of this part of taipei in my mind, i just wanted to recall a bit of the memory of my childhood, and being like an innocent kid again in this animals' innocent world (...although they'd also fight for food and sex... >_<). i'm glad i could see the brown bear here, so i wouldn't feel that sad if i didn't have chance to go to alaska to see the real, wild ones. (oh btw she's much smaller than alaska ones and much slimmer... i guess animals living in tropical countries might be all skinny... :P) it's also interesting to know that bacoons which are so cute to be so popular here are considered as trouble makers for american kids. and bisons, which i only saw the copper statues in buffalo city, also got a small family in taipei. walking under a 35 degree C sunny air, you can fully understand why those creatures in front of you decided to stay in/under the water and seemed never willing to come out, and never understand why those koalas originally from the country right below the equator still need an ac in their show room.

this is my day trip in taipei zoo, with an extraordinary american english teacher who got a lot of chinese practice from the name boards, had a few hours great time.