Tell you what, there're some very nice and friendly people in my office, there're narrow minded ones too tho. and what the worst is some out of them just right in my team. so here comes my destiny, that i'd be allocated with them in a group for bbq or games in company outing, i'd have to dinner out or hang out for fun with them once something good happens in my team eg. our team leader got promoted to manager, and i'd need to talk to them sometimes for work coordination. even if i'm trying very hard to show my warmness/friendship/kindess/tolerance to them but it hardly works as they've got certain bias toward people out of their group and no matter how hard i've been trying it's no way for me to get into their circle. this makes me frustrated and upset. i don't care if i can be one of them, but what i do care is the groupuscule would definitely affect the quality and efficiency of work and the operation of the whole organisation as the personal preference controls decision making in those small communities. one of them always gave me a dirty look with no reason since the first day i've been introduced to the team, others are ok just haven't seen me as one of the team members. at first several weeks i smiled and chatted relaxedly to each of them but seldom got friendly response back so now i'm kinda giving up. the best policy is that business is business, i do my best at work with them but if they want to mix personal emotion in it it'd never be my business. oh god... i just wish i don't have to talk to them.

So i actually kept telling myself, if you want people to be nice to you, be nice to them first. nothing'd loss anyway that you keep smiling to them no matter what they do to you. and if you could get through this challenge that holds back your self-esteem, you'd be the ultimate winner. i kept controlling myself, the mood the temper and the attitude, so as to avoid things turning out to be even worse. yeah... smiling to them!