Today is a confessing day. I haven't gone out dating or 5 months. which means i've remained single, on my own, for 5 months. it's not the longest empty for me tho, but since i 'grew up' it's considered as a record. the problem is, i'm kinda used to my single life, or say, enjoying in it. more specifically speaking, i seem not to feel like involving in affection stuff any more, at least at the moment. i'm still desperate for a bf, but i seem to be able to wait a bit. i'm pretty surprised at the way i've changed. the biggest difference is when hanging out with a terribly cute guy i even wanted to remain the friendship only instead of getting into something more. i think i must have gotten some problem. yes, i started to date my work!

So here i gotta tell you guys something. i got this 5 year plan in my mind. some of you might worry if my next plan after 5 years would be too late to start, i worry too. but afterall i'm not young any more, things can't restart over again can they? anyway, i have this idea in mind that i'll get a manager position, or a team leader, in 5 years. why do i like to be a manager? well, it's not because i like managing people, but managing work. i like to get things organized or done under my control. i like to assign work to those who have talent or professional skills and see they achieve their goals with joys. i got too many talented intelligent friends who're not doing what they're good at or happy with, and i kinda feel like rescuing them. haha... sounds crazy/silly isn't it?

so that's my goal... what will i do after i get it? i don't know, probably once i know how it tastes like i'd just quit, then go back to family being a house wife having several babies.

some thoughts share with you.