The 3rd time I got disappointed to someone I've cared about.
I wasn't asked to spend xmas eve together, neither to celebrate new year's eve together, as a so-called 'good friend'.
I started to doubt about the term of 'good friend'.
Human relationship is the most tough one in life and also the most awful one.
You thought when you're nice to people, you'll be treated in same way and won't be left behind.
But no you won't. There're always personal interests and intentions involved.
And when you're smart enough to be able to see into it, you confused what's the right thing to do to human nature, and can't keep wondering why...

This is a cruel world. Perhaps being a good friend to your pets will do better to life than to any human beings.

I'm an impulsive person. I admit it. I might just think about something then get to do it in 5 mins. Or I've been thinking about something, then you see me start it the next day. It was just yesterday, that I checked out the website of several spanish class. This evening I called to one of the class and got some information, then after work I walked to the school and paid the deposite fees. It just happened in click time, very quick, and easy.

In fact I've thought of this for a while. I need to learn something new otherwise I'll be dying of knowledge thirst. I need to join in some group with certain same interest otherwise I'll be hanging myself in my tiny cozy room. I need to get one more competitiveness otherwise I'll be kicked out from this cruel newborns-ruled world.

The practical fact is, I checked out 104 the other night and found some interesting jobs. They all require basically the spanish ability except for english, if the market is about the continent of America.

So I'll be having my first class next Saturday. In my past experience with french, it might take 2 yrs plus one month local stay at least to get the fluency. And I might not be able to attend all the class as I will have business trips in the tuition. And my tounge will have trouble doing the pronounciation of "R"....

Anyway, we'll see! What I'm sure about is I'll be having fun learning this new language, and my territory to this world is going to get bigger and bigger!:D

Jump! Boys v.s. Born into Brothels

Highly recommended movies. You can read the stories from here and here

The review will come up soon.

So... there's a tarot reader booth in the mall downstairs of my hotel, which i've been passed by for days and didn't walk in even tho I wanted to. And today I finally walked in. It was kind of embarrassing to talk about this... I don't want people to see me as a geek or some country bumpkin who only follows fortune teller's words for any decisoins or actions. Anyway, I walked in, the girl in front desk who could barely understand english told me it's a 20 mins reading in 300 peso, but someone just walked in there so i have to wait for 15 mins. So I sat outside the booth for 15mins and suffered shopping people's looks... now i really became a chinese bumpkin!

At last a guy came out (wait a min... a GUY??? I feel better now... see guys also go for tarot readers!:P) and it's my turn. The reader is a very pretty and attractive girl in her 30's i guess. She's so pretty that I could only recognize her age thru grey hair on her head. Her voice is soft and clam like melody, and soon you'd feel being convinced and being thoroughly understood by the way she talked. She first asked me to pick 10 cards randomly, in my left hand (no idea why right hand can't work). Then she read out my characteristics and the general picture of what currently in my mind from the card I picked. Next she asked me what questions I'd like to ask, and based on the questions I was requested to pick 3 or 4 cards and she would answer my questions by the interpretation of the cards.

It was a pleasant experience to me and what she said were pretty much close to what I thought. Also the signs of cards gave me quite positive answers to my confusion so I'm very happy with the result. You can't say it's not real, as sometimes cards really reflect the answer directly, for example, when I asked for family stuff then a card with parents and kids sign showed up, and when I asked for social relation, a card with several different heads sign came out. Interesting, isn't it?

You must be interested in the questions I asked and answers... well, people say if you tell wishes then wishes can't come true, so I'd better not to tell. The only hint i can give you is, next year good things will happen to me and i'm very looking forward to it. So let's wait and see!:)

New year resolution

Don't spend time on players.

If he wants to play, play with him just for fun, but never throw true heart in there and never create any imaginations or expections yourself. When holiday's gone, put memories in box and keep moving on.

I dont know if i can do it... but i've learned and will keep learning.
Good luck to all my girl friends and merry xmas to you all!

I don't know if it's good news or bad news. I'm voted as the employee of the month again. It's weird that we have 170 people in this office and plus Shenzen office there're almost 200 people. At least they could've gotten some other people to vote for, but they chose me again. I wonder if this is just an alternative way to make up the unfairness of my salary structure. If so then next year I might not get the expecting raise. My boss came to congrate me but I just didn't feel it's right. I'm not that good to be chosen twice in a year time. Now I'm really worried.

Oh well... so far this is the 2nd thing I feel uncomfortable for the luck that God offered to me currently. The first thing has been proved the 'supposed' good news brought me hard time instead. I don't want to be disappointed again in this way. I just hope I can get through this tough year end time and life will get better next year.

其實 你並不那麼在乎 雙人床上只有單邊的溫暖
因為你知道 跨過海的那一端 總有個人陪你作夢 讓你期待
你天真的以為 不管生活有多困難 他都會在螢幕的彼端 與你為伴
直到現實拉近了兩人的距離 你才發現 變化 發生的有多快...

身邊的人總是一個個離你遠去 而你 卻還在此地無止盡的徘徊
開心的傷心的 如同雲煙過眼一般 到頭來發現 其實你仍在原地旋轉
麻木 只是暫時的止痛劑 讓你得以形容搞骸的隨著鐘錘 分秒搖瞼u是藥退了 人醒了 記憶中的種種無奈 又再排山倒海般 蜂擁而來

是不是該頓悟了 就索性拎個行囊 找個陌生的小地方 重新追求自己的夢想?
聽著陌生的語言 嘗著陌生的味道 望著陌生的街角 也許 抱著陌生的小娃娃
讓熟悉的都遠離 讓過去的不再想起 讓陌生的變熟悉
然後 讓下一個三十年輪迴 如同蝶俑羽化般 重生在某個不知名的角落
如有幸者 或許開花結果...

身邊的人都有勇氣這麼做 那麼 下一個何嘗不能是你?

就這麼決定吧!

每一次我總帶給你無比的快樂
而你帶來的卻是不開心的日子...

Another piece of info for our new comer...

This is why we love taiwan. This tropical island would be much much more boring if only have one season. Summer here is fun, but winter is another fun time for us too! Let me tell you what 's fun in taiwan winter.

First, it's time for friends or families to get together and enjoy a warm hot pot... especially the spicy one! Altho we can always go for a hotpot at any time(and we usually do), it'd be more enjoyable to do it in the very cold weather. The hotpot here is mostly all your can eat, and also including drinks, fruit, and even ice cream. I ensure that this whole hotpot thing will keep you full and warm until next lunch! Hehehe...

Except for hotpot, if you're a gourmet you can also go for ginger duck, lamb fondu, all sorts of nutricious soups made with bones and chinese herbs/medicines, and sweet dumpling soup. Yes we're chinese and we love eating.

Second, it's time for going for the hot spring! The coolest thing is going up to the mountain at a full moon night, jumping into an outdoor hotspring pool in very cold weather, and having a bottle of warm sa-ke ready by the pool. Nude or with suit are both fine, depends on the gender of friends you're going with. If the place serves good chicken soup, then things will be perfect!

Third, people say winter fashion is more interesting than summer one, as more accessaries like scarf, hat, gloves, sucks in various styles can be put on and also you can play with the length of the boots and the thickness of the coats. The only thing upsets guys is they would have difficulty seeing boobs and butts bursting out anywhere.

So don't complain about the cold weather as there wouldn't be so much fun if it's not so cold. Also you gotta learn to stand the coldness instead of replying on the heater or some electric blanket as the winter here only lasts 3 months and you wouldn't have more than 10 chances to wear your heavy jacket in winter. After all, it's merely 10 degree C which is much warmer than the winter in your country.

So.. Enjoy then!:)

It's cold today but I felt warm in mind.
I want to thank you to keep me accompanied tonight
and make me laugh all the time.:)

The bike lane from Kuan-Du to Ba-li is so nice, especailly the Bali side. You gotta bike across the big bridge then you find another peaceful land on the other side of the river and see the busy city from there. The river is right by your toes with boats floating on it, and the only thing you hear is the sound of the waves. In the evening you see lights coming up from Tam-shuei side and mrt train passing by, you kind of look at a material world from outside of it, while it's only a river width away.

Monday note: My arms and thighs start to get really sore from that biking...>_<

It's a forest park in around 2hr drive from taipei (by motorcycle, by car maybe only 70mins away) called Man-Yueh-Yuan (full moon round), the name is based on the shape of one of the mountains which looks like a full moon. According to the guide, the river which our trail was built along is still in kid's stage, and that's why it's got plenty of various waterfalls in it. The one in ths photo is the biggest one, and behind the falls it's a solid rock wall which makes the falls look like a water curtain. The trail is quit easy but still takes you 40mins to see the biggest falls. There's another big one which is taller than this, but too bad we didn't have time to go see it.

I had a great time today and I just remember I had nice talks and also had talked a lot.

The food in shilin night market food court is getting worse and I don't know why it's still wellknown for foreigners. I feel embarrasssed to have taken a foreign friend there. It's in my black list already but i got a bad memory so you guys my dear friends pls remind me this next time I try to go there again. Tks!

You don't spoil me any more......?

To be honest, I did make that wish. And surprisingly, that wish did come true!
I appreciated God's kind offering to me as always. I thought at last something could be given a try.

But nothing happened.

It's hard to pretend I don't care. You've been important to me for a long time and still are. I smelled something already and I know it's not a joke. But you still tried not to hurt me or break my heart. I'm highly appreciated your thoughtfulness and sweetness.

But when you tried to squeeze tears in eyes for fun I've got tears filled in mind.

Don't be worried I will always be at your side no matter what. I still enjoy our laughs and jokes and the time with you as the way we're. It's very different from anyone else's to me and I did feel the true happiness there whenever we met and whatever it is between us. Hope you also enjoyed it.

So the moral of the story is, it's not always good to make the wish come true. Hehe... then next time I will try to make wish in an opposite way then maybe when it comes true there'll be a happy story in the end!:)